ya kno what i hate?

when all your problems just seem to be raining down on you all in one storm, ya kno? like when 1. your best friend breaks a promise to you and you dont kno if you want to forgive them or not bc if you dont youll end a very good friendship and youll regret it. but if you DO forgive that friend, you cant really ever trust them the same way again until a very long time. or it just makes you think "wont he just break an even BIGGER promise in the future?" and then youll feel like a putz for forgiving him this time and giving him another chance to break your heart again. or when 2. your parents are fighting and you cant even do anything about it, even tho you have a clue what it could be about, you still can do nothing about it bc youre not supposed to be knowing what theyr talking about anyway. or when 3. someone you used to hook up with just IMs you outta no where just to torture you, calling you a slut and accusing you of being in a skanky orgy. even tho you did nothing to him, and the way you two ended was in such a horrible way and in his own fault. i mean its like, you already horrendeously "dumped" me in the most embarrassing, undignifying, and dishonest way, and NOW you have the balls (something you didnt have before) to fucking instant message me on the fuckin computer and say the corniest lines ever known to man?! im surprised you didn't have one of your buddies do it this time, oh wait you did, you used your friend's sn. too much of a pussy to use your own sn? damn you love having your friends help you out with everything. well with that being said, im done complaining.now to the goods. last night i saw 28 days later with tom. we had fun. and he drove so i was happy :) it gets annoying after a while to drive all the time. anyways.. youre gonna love this! or you wont. heh i can think of a few people who wont.. hehe.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

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PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK!marquee>

hey so yesterday was my sister's birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHAU!!!and so yesterday naylor thought the fireworks were at penn's landing. uhh haha. im glad i went anyway. bc my family didn't do anything, so it was nice to be out of the house. and if i didnt go yesterday, i wouldnt have made a new friend! i met this cool kid named kyle smith. what a white boy name. haha. jk =P its cool bc he doesnt know what color his hair is! bc i def dont kno mine either! hehehe. anyways next week ill kno what color my hair will be! heehee... actually, i think today im gonna buy the dye. oh man yesterday my mouth was just not running out of things to say! i felt so bad for everyone around me! i was being soooo annoying yesterday, SORRY GUYS! *bows head and folds arms* xin loui<~~"sorry" in Vietnamese. ahhhh! im so tired but hyper right now..... actually i think ill go to walmart and get something for my nephew :) omg guess what guys. you kno how mccullough says she has these words or phrases she says only in her mind? well i have one too, but i think its time to be said out loud now.hoo ha - it can mean several different things. i cant really describe what the meaning is so ill use it in a few sentences."oh what a bunch of hoo ha""whats all the hoo ha about?"and yes, i HAVE used these phrases in my head for quite some time. its just now i cant keep it in anymore. ok apparently you can tell i only had about 5 hours of sleep last night. bc im rambling on here about the dumbest shit. ok im done. peace out, yo.

ya kno whats really funny?

and im only doing this right now bc i am so incredibly evil and mean >:Dbeing the only sXe person in a group of friends and being able to watch everyone do stupid things that they regret. or just really dumb out-of-the-norm things. im sorry but its too funny. well here's another funny thing. and again, the only reason im doing this is bc i am so evil. when friends break promises to you OR when they ask you to consider giving them a chance of being able to 'start something' and by 'start something' i mean 'become more than just friends' no but the funniest thing is, this ex-friend of mine, lets just give him the code name douchebag ok? well douchebag and i have talked for countless amount of hours about starting something bc we used to like each other wen we were like freshmen. anyway so i told him one of the reasons i wouldnt ever hook up w him is bc i knew if we started something, ill get screwed over in the end or be cheated on. bc he has a habit of cheating on his gf's with people he doesnt even like. do you honestly think i am that stupid where id get involved w someone who would cheat on me?! no0o0o. well douchebag kept trying to convince me "no im not really like that, i wouldnt cheat on a girl if i really cared for her" well it doesnt seem like he cares for anyone. bc last night he goes and hooks up w one of my friends. not like i give a shit who douchebag gets with, but that fact he has a girlfriend now, and this is the THIRD time he cheated on a girlfriend. uhmm.. does a gurl hafto suck your dick to make you care for her? i just cannot believe i even *considered* the very *thought* of the *essence* of me starting something with him. he really doesnt kno how to prove to me that he isnt a player. seriously, asking me to consider going out w him, was just like a slap in the face. its like asking "hey vy, do you wanna be more than just friends, ill probly hook up w other gurls and forget your bday or our anniversery, and then say stupid inappropriate jokes about your family." seriously, thats EXACTLY what i heard. hey maybe you, the reader, will be able to back me up on this:ok so douchebag called me up one night. im seriously on the phone ready to cry bc i have this huge problem. and he asks me whats wrong. so i tell him about it. and hes hangin out w tom at the time. so i can tell hes not even paying attention to what im saying bc after i told him what was wrong, hes all "so? whats the big deal?" and he knows all about what im talking about so he has no excuse to not kno what the fuck im talking about. second, if you call someone but youre with someone else, isnt it rude to ignore the person youre on the phone with and just talk to the person youre in the room with? i KNOW for a FACT it is. third, isnt it improper and rude to make jokes that make fun of someone else' dad's alcohol problem? fourth, HOW many times has douchebag caled me when HE was drunk?! too many times. fifth, douchebag's mom called me ugly like a month ago, do *i* still care?!?! no0o0o0o0o0o!! so why the fuck should douchbag care my dad yelled at him on the phone like 7 bajillion months ago?! GET THE FUCK OVER IT at least my dad had enough balls to say it in english to his face!thats all i have to say and hopefull yyou agree with mei am so done with getting into these petty fights with someone who is so fucking immature and ignorant, my patience has officially fucking ran out.

attack of the *Tinh Yeu* survey! (tinh yeu is Vietnamese for love)

hey. guess what. do i let my guy problems/sexual emotions control my life? i think i do. but im 17 i cant help myself! its probly the worst thing about being young. having to go thru this shit for the first time in your life -_-; guys say girls are confusing. girls say guys are confusing. only bc some people like to talk in "code," and by code i mean, "if i tell her the exact opposite of what i mean, i think she'll get it.."*BASIC INFO* what is your name?: the chatterbox* what is the current date?: july 2nd 2003* what is your sex?: chick: sexy sex and the sex offenders* what is your current relationship status?: hmm.. single and not interested in douchebag pussies* what is your sexual orientation?: straight* what character traits do you look for in a potential interest?: outgoing, understanding, listener (bc i talk so much), open minded, mature, confident enough in their sexuality to make gay jokes or wear pink n purple ;)* what physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?: very tall where it looks so disproportioned when standing next to me :D and unique hair style and/or color* what kind of fashion-sense attracts you?: im into the faggish look, not full blown out homo-fag but a little feminine (fag fettish here!) like wearing something pink like a t-shirt or pink chucks, or tightish pants. not like spandex but fitted where you can check out their ass. tight t-shirts. ahhh sexyy..* what kind of hair style do you find attractive on a potential mate?: anything thats not a biff. i like hair where i can run my fingers through it* what is the usual age range you look at?: at the most 2 years older than me but thats it. and maybe a few months younger than me (well wen im 17 i dont like to date too far)* what traits turn you off?: quietness, closed mindedness, immaturity* do you prefer to date various people, or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?: date various ppl, i never go to the one-on-one relationship thing* are you afraid to ask people out on dates?: i guess, but then again iv never had the URGE to ask someone out on a date*SINGLE LIFE* when you're single, do you wish you were in a relationship?: not in a relationship, but hooking up w someone you like is nice* what are the positive points about being single?: you can pimp it :P* what are the negative points about being single?: no one there to hold you (oh how cheesy does that sound)* when single, do you often find youself longing for companionship?: sometimes. not usually, i like my space* how well do you handle rejection?: if im told in a bad way then i handle it horribly. but if someone is just honest w me, then im ok* do you miss your last sweetie?: ughh i just miss certain things but im doing better now with it. the best way of getting over someone is getting under someone else ;)* do you think it's better to look for love, or let it find you?: you cant LOOK for it. bc then youll fall in love with the first thing that pops in your face*WHEN YOU'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP* when you're in a relationship right now, does it last?: 5 second dan.* what's the longest relationship you've been in?: ^* the shortest?: ^^* what are the positive points about being in a relationship?: 24 hour booty call bitch. hah, and just someone to do certain nice cute things with. like something as simple as going somewhere holding hands, the little things like that are what i love the most* what are the negative points about being in a relationship?: if theyr all up in your space and never let you be w your gf's. this hasnt happened to me, but i see it w other ppl: ppl let their bfs or gfs control them, tell them what to do, and make rules. relationships arent about restricting someone else, if boyfriends and gurlfriends were about authority and dictatorship, it shouldve been renamed to parenthood.* have you ever gone out with someone you didn't know very well?: no i would only go out w someone i knew well* have you ever gone out with someone you had a crush on?: i never had a boyfriend before* have you ever gone out with someone who had a crush on you?: dont people go after ppl they like?* what is an example of an ideal, perfect day with your sweetie?: hmm.. well, just simple fun things. well for me one of them would be spending a day, just the two of us, in an amusement park going on all the rides and eating in one of the freakin over priced restaurants, they exploit you! or something like sky-diving, where at least one of you are scared shitless. o0oh baby the thrill and adrenaline rush!* how important is it to you to know the exact status of your relationships (ie: "dating", "going steady", etc)?: uhmm id give it about 2 monhs before i ask the horrible question "uhmm what are we?..."* do you think couples should spend a very large amount of time together, or space things out a tad?: you cant be up each other's asses. bc then you lose your friends. just like how you dont spend every waking moment of your day with a certain friend, its the same w a 'significant other' haha* have you ever found yourself worried about commitment?: oh yes. duh.* when involved, do you try to think about the here-and-now, or do you often think about the future?: future scares me.* how do you prefer to handle disagreements?: argue it out right then n there, never leave them to the last minute bc then itll start more problems, believe me i know* when in a fight, it is better to euphamize things to soften the hurt, or should one be blunt?: try to be nice as possible without lying or omitting truth. blunt is sometimes good* how do you feel when your mate is mad at you and won't tell you why?: id me pissed. bc how am i supposed to fix what i did to you when you wont tell me what it is!*FEELINGS* do you have a crush right now?: yeah -_-;* do they know?: im not sure if the other one knows* what's the longest period of time you've ever had a crush?: well not counting grade school bc those just dont count. in high school i guess a couple months* have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?: id say i liked them but i didnt make it all awkward and serious like "oh my goodness you are the wind beneath my wings!"* has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?: heh yeah, so gay..* do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?: heh yea* how do you feel about long-distance relationships?: oh wow, if youre love is that strong but if its something w just measely little crushy feelings then no* if so, does a phone call with them make you feel better of worse?: blargghh* have you ever pined for someone when you're not around them?: hm.. oh look.. its a window...* would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?: no i hate kids, maybe when im older* what would you do if you got pregnant / made her pregnant while in a relationship?: it would never happen, im not stupid. and i could never get someone else pregnant bc my sperm are lazy swimmers :P* would you get involved with someone if they were previously married?: not right now.. im 17* how big of an issue is your mate's morals, to your compatibility?: i got my own set of morals too* how big of an issue is political beliefs, to your compatibility?: fuck politics* how big of an issue is religion to your, compatibility?: dont care at all* how big of an issue to you is your mate's ethnicity?: everyone is the same color to me--green :)* in a potential mate, how important is conversation to you?: omgg i am a chatter box! its the most important thing of all!* in a potential mate, how important is intelligence to you?: i like it, i dont like dumb people* in a potential mate, how important is sense of humor to you?: anyone who can make me laugh is awesome, finding someone who can tolerate my laugh, thats a different thing* in a potential mate, how important is understanding to you?: vital, bc he needs to kno why im a nutball, and understand why i do the stupid things i do* in a potential mate, how important is forgiveness to you?: ppl who hold grudges, oh jeez we dont need another me* what makes your heart flutter, and brings a bit cheesy smile to your face?: kissin them outside while BOTH of our long hair is wippin around in the wind. hehe. sittin on their lap while they got their arms around you, you feel so protected, sure i say i love defending for myself, n no doubt i do! but for once just to have a rest.. not scared of "public affection" stuff, hold my hand, peck kiss me on my lips, jus havin his arms around you when youre out at a show or what ever. its the dumb little things that i love the most!*MAKING OUT* what was your first kiss like?: very porn-like haha (dont ask..)* what parts of a person's body do you find most attractive?: facial bone structure (haha) n hands/forearm area (another thing you shouldnt ask about)* what's the first thing you look at when you look at someone you're attracted to? face n hair* how important is the looks of a mate's face to you?: not vomit level haha* how important is the looks of a mate's body to you?: average bc their personality makes them better. not extremely fat and not extremely skinny. kinda lanky n thin is hot tho (not a skeleton)* when you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it, or the other?: i dont kno.. i guess depends on who likes the other one more* when you are about to kiss someone for the first time, do you generally feel calm, or are you nervous?: a little nervous* can you generally tell when the time is right for a first kiss to happen with your object of interest?: hah usually after kristina says "hey do you wanna get w my friend?!?!" ahaha* what are you're favorite places to be touched?: hmm..my ass, stomach, face, behind my legs, my sides* what are your favorite places to touch?: nipples (HEEHEE) my not so secret fettish. the face. n the ass! im an ass gurl! oh yeah n hands, his hasto be bigger than mine of * what are you're favorite places to be kissed?: lips, neck* what are your favorite places to kiss?: lips, chest ;) (nipples), i enjoy licking someones hands* do you prefer long sensual kisses or shorter pecks?: both man* have you ever kissed someone you longed for?: yea* how did that make you feel?: goo0o0od * have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren't seriously involved with?: dude thats ALL i do...* were you single at the time?: always n forever* what are your ticklish areas?: omg everywhere. but mostly my sides n my neck* what are your turn-offs?: guys feeling me up, but i get over it when i start to like them more* what do you most like about making out?: hehehehehe ;)*SEX* are you a virgin?: yup* if not, would you consider your first time to have been a good one?: ---* how old were you when you lost your virginity?: ---* have you ever had sex with someone you loved?: ----* have you ever turned down an offer for sex?: yeah..* if you are a virgin, how do you feel about sex?: LOVE is automatic for sex* if you are a virgin, what are your reasons to stay that way?: i havent found the right guy yet, OBVIOUSLY.. actually i really honestly believe i couldnt ever give myself to someone until i was completely satisfied with myself. i mean, i can barely stand the sight of myself naked in the mirror, why would i want someone else looking at me when *im* not comepletely comfortable? ill feel too weird n awkwad after..* how much do you think sex changes a relationship?: probly a lot, well it depends if the love was true* has anyone ever walked in on you during love-making?: ----* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your sexual attractiveness?: uhm..negative poo* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your - *ahem* - kink factor?: hmm..scarey level. i like lotsa weird n backward things* how do you feel about casual sex?: casual sex w casual partners? gross* at what level of importance does sex factor into your relationships?: no relationships yet hehe* how important is it to talk frankly about sex?: when the time comes i guess?* would you stay with a lover if the love stopped, but the sex was still enjoyable?: no..then the sex wouldnt be meaningful* would you stay with a lover if the sex stopped / got boring, but there was still love?: sure, try new things? like a 3 some hehe*LOVE* do you believe in love?: unfortunately* do you believe in love at first sight?: love of sight at first sight* what would it take for you to love someone?: a lottttttttttt, i can barely LIKE someone for more than 3 hours, a day n consider yourself lucky! haha jk, i dont kno every time i get burned/screwed over, its harder for the next guy to get to me* has someone ever told you they loved you?: not like that * have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it?: friends n sisters* have you ever told someone you loved them and not meant it?: probly* do you believe it's necessary to express your love in words, or is just the atmosphere and feelings enough?: both i guess* do you believe love can end, or do you think it never goes away, and just changes, or what?: love is a straight line. it has a start. it has an end. deal with it.*BREAK UPS* have you ever had your heart broken?: not broken but majorly bruised, scraped, and cut* have you ever been dumped?: rejected yes* have you ever dumped someone?: i guess "yeah i think we should stay friends.."* have you ever mutually broke up with someone?: 5 second dan..haha* has a romantic companion ever made you cry?: euw, tears=evil* did you cry in thier presence?: nah* did you cry with them?: noo..* have you ever made a romantic companion cry?: nahh* have you ever had an emotional pain so bad it made you sick or physically hurt?: nah* have you ever been unfaithful? if so, how did it make you feel?: iv hooked up w more than one guy in a night, it didnt make me feel bad until one of the guys just started to be so nice* if so, did they find out?: heh yeah.. emails are nice.* have you ever been cheated on? if so, how did it make you feel?: nah but if someone was actually STUPID enough to do that to me, then they never see their penis again* have you ever had to end a relationship due to life changes not related to romance (ie: moving, strict parents, etc)?: heh sorta* have you ever learned an important lesson as a result of a break up?: yeah dont waste your time on loser lying douchebags. o0oh.... snap!*THE AFTERMATH* have you ever gotten back together with someone after breaking up?: euw fuck no* did it work?: -----* do you believe there's hope for people after they get back together, or do you think the same problems that caused the initial break-up will resurface?: if you change, then you changed for ONE person in the world, think of the ripple effect it has on other ppl you associate with* have you ever broke up and remained friends afterward?: i guess so* have you ever broke up and became bitter enemies?: haha yes and yes 0:)* if so, did you ever make amends?: heh no* have you ever broke up and lost touch?: yea bc i MAKE sure i lose touch w them* have you ever got back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?: i tried talkin to mike but i doubt his brother gave him my picture* were you afraid to do so?: yes gary hates me* do you ever check up on old flames (weather by asking mutual friends, for example), without actually contacting them?: i guess ugh i need to stop my bad habits* have you ever longed to get back together with someone?: nah once someoen is gone, they lost their chance forever* although it surely depends of specific relationships, how long does it take before your out looking for companionship again?: usually takes me about a week, but if i liked someone a lot i dont kno it jus depends :* (

hmm.. tomm's agenda?

well this whole week right now is booked. even next week too. madd plans: its all work, party, shopping, dye hair, work, shows...yea im tired. gotta finish up my big ass pinata tomrw. night night.